Self-transformation is not just about changing yourself. It means shifting yourself to a completely new dimension of experience and perception.
—Jaggi Vasudev (Sadhguru)
The butterfly is a powerful symbol for transformation; trusting in the process and learning of inner strength to break open the cocoon. The image incorporating a labyrinth (to the right) demonstrates another significant element of transformation—going within.
Transformation must start from within. It is an “inside-out” process that encourages a deeper understanding of what is within in order to make a lasting shift to what is seen or experienced on the outside. It’s important to awaken to what is within in order to embark on the humbling journey.
And trust me…it IS humbling.
I also find it helpful to open to the idea that transformation is a continual process. It’s not a “one and done” kind of deal. As one shift happens, there is a different perception both of yourself and the world around you. This shift in perception inspires the next inner transformation and so on. In reality, every event you experience in your day changes you in some way. The level of attention it is offered influences the impact.
Generally speaking, I find the day to day shifting more fluid and a bit easier to be with. I get caught in the ego-heart struggle when I’m dealing with an old story that keeps showing up. We all have those old stories, too. It comes down to the willingness to explore them and to be in the discomfort of shifting them.
Although I may not be painting the most beautiful picture of transformation, it is worth the love and attention. Shifting the old beliefs can open Pandora’s box, but it’s usually because it needs to be opened. Spirit works in ways to get us to dive in so we can see the truth of who we are. The more we deflect, the more insistent the nudge to go within becomes.
I have been doing some extensive work on an old story. There are days when I allow myself to see the untruths hidden in the story and then there are days where letting go of the story feels like letting go of part of my identity. It has become such a familiar voice that silencing it is like losing a friend, albeit a toxic one. I can get so trapped in the story that everything I perceive is enmeshed in the falsehood of the story. Relationships that were formed prior to this work seem like they are at risk. What will happen if the me who existed prior to this awareness is no longer accepted? My work doesn’t only affect me. Which is amazing…when fear isn’t the one steering the ship.
The next part of my little dance of transformation comes in the form of “tsk-tsk”. I ‘know’ not to believe the old story, but there is a fear that arises that makes me want to curl up with my security blanket and hide.
That’s the real magic word. I want to hide. It’s seemingly comfortable to stay where I am, but I’m not doing myself any favors. I’m not here to hide.
I’m here to be seen.
I’m not here to be perfect, to have all the answers or to have everything figured out. I’m here to transform the fear and old stories into light on my path. I’m here to be the best version of myself every day and to be gracious to myself when I trip. I’m opening to an inner world that is rich with gifts, insight, wisdom, joy, love, creativity and so much more. It’s bound to be messy, but that’s how it all comes into focus. I’m not aware of one creative person who doesn’t first make a mess before the desired result is achieved.
I am a creative person. I make messes. I also create amazing results. 😊
Are you ready to make a mess?
Walking together in light, love and peace 🙏