Take a Peek

When I find myself at a loss for inspiration or creativity, it often means I'm avoiding something. Time to take a peek within.

Not only am I avoiding, I am also hesitant to learn what I might uncover.

Which in turn means that it is that much more important for me to take a peek within.

Do you ever find yourself in this little predicament?

Personal growth is a beautiful-albeit scary-facet of life that inspires and intrigues me.

It guides the blossoming of all aspects of me, personally and professionally. It challenges me to be more courageous than I ever imagined. I discover strength within that I thought was non-existent. I lean in and let myself be seen more vulnerably.

Yet the familiar resistance I am experiencing is guided by my loyal teacher: fear.

I was told yesterday that it felt like my body was waiting to exhale. That fits. There are a handful of "what if's" and "how will this look if" scenarios that keep playing out in my mind.

The real question is: What do I most need and want for myself?

I don't mean this in a self-centered way, but one rooted in a deep knowing of what my heart and soul most need and want. I'm only going to know this if I take a peek within.

What boundaries do I need to set or reinforce?

What gray areas need more clarification?

How might I unintentionally be self-sabotaging?

How am I trying to control something that is not mine to control?

What am I willing to risk or sacrifice? What price am I willing to pay?

So this is where I sit as I write today, allowing myself to be seen in the uncertainty and following my mental doodles. I encourage all of you, regardless of where you are or what you're experiencing, to explore these questions. The answers will then be a foundation for you and on hand when you most need them. Keep in mind that the answers may shift as you, yourself, shift.

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Walking together in light, love, peace, and the need to take a peek