Breathe

 

“Sometimes the best thing you can do is not think, not wonder,

not imagine, not obsess.

Just breathe,

and have faith that everything will work out for the best.”

~Nishan Panwar

 

 

This is a constant love nudge for me as things shift. The more I don’t ‘know’ what is going on, the easier it is for me to get scared. I get concerned with the ‘why’ and forget that my responsibility in that moment is to breathe and ALLOW. I wish it was as easy to do as it is to type!

 

The past week or so has been particularly challenging for me in light of all of the shedding of old beliefs and releasing that has taken place. I wasn’t sleeping well, previous ‘demons’ crept back in and I found myself in a fear space. I was afraid because I didn’t understand why old weight/eating baggage was coming so forcefully to mind, I couldn’t make sense of why I was waking up in the wee hours of the morning and unable to fall back asleep even though there wasn’t anything on my mind, I was struggling to be grounded. It was an incredibly uncomfortable time to put it gently.

 

Looking back at it now, I love the awareness and acknowledgment of what helped me find my ground again: playing piano, crystal layout/meditation, sitting by the fire and a walk outside. In each of those moments, I am in tune with my breathing. I am connected to Spirit and nature very intentionally. I realized that all of the discomfort was lessened with intentional connection. It really made me see how easy it is to forget the importance of connection and how it is a choice to be connected. When I am feeling overwhelmed with things changing within and around me, I have a CHOICE as to how I respond. I can stay in the swirl of the unknown or I can find grounding in breath and connection.

 

For me, it isn’t so much about doubting that everything will work out as much as the fear of not understanding what is going on. I know the moment will pass and things will be resolved, but it scares me when things don’t make sense. And more often than not, they won’t make sense. Things shift and change as they are ready and in the way they need to. I don’t have any say in that, which, on some days, is better received than on others.

 

I also love how I get reinforcement for my messages. I realized, through journaling, that the discomfort is all connected to the shifting and powerful experiences I have been having. Then I went to my Earth Magic (Steven D. Farmer) deck and pulled the “Waterfall/Effortless” card. The first few sentences of the explanation of the card are: You have come to the edge of your comfort zone and find yourself fighting to resist moving past that perceived precipice of who you are, how you can be, or what you can do. Spirit is asking you to step beyond the edge and allow yourself to do so with ease rather than struggle. The key word here is to allow. This is not the time to fight, but to surrender to the will of Spirit, even if you are being asked to let go completely and tumble into the brink of Creation itself.

 

Connection feeds my soul. Grace, love and gratitude assist me on my journey. I am deeply grateful for this work, the path that I am on and the knowledge that I gain. I am also deeply grateful for all of you who walk with me and allow me the honor of guiding you on your path. Love and blessings to you and your families this Thanksgiving.