I’ve learned that fear limits you and your vision.

It serves as blinders to what may be just a few steps down the road for you.

The journey is valuable, but believing in

your talents,

your abilities,

and your self-worth

can empower you to walk down an even brighter path.

Transforming fear into freedom-how great is that?

          ~Soledad O’Brien

 

 

Getting to the root of the fear can be a trickier task than expected. It can be quite exhausting, draining and frustrating. The more exhausted I am, the less attention I feel like putting into the root of the fear. The less attention I put into it, the more frustrated I get because I haven’t moved beyond the fear. It’s a familiar cycle, yet one I always manage to get through.

 

As I continue on my journey, I’m uncovering some pretty deep fears. They are deeper than I realized and intimately related to the depth and magnitude of my talents…which is still unfathomable at times.

 

I’m stepping into familiar, yet unfamiliar, territory in March. I (as the owner/practitioner of Lux Eterna Healing) will be a vendor at two different health fairs. Although I have taken part in health fairs before, this is the first time that I will be in the midst of many alternative healers like myself. At the previous health fair I was involved in for several years, I was the only one represented doing energy work and crystal healing. Now I will be in the midst of many like-minded healers. As excited as I am to be among them, I’m realizing how much fear is hanging around. How do I set myself apart from everyone else? How do I attract people to my table? How do I offer a genuine connection with enough spark to encourage them to come for a session? How do I invite people to experience the importance of personal growth, spiritual connection and physical comfort? What makes me different from everyone else?

 

I’m not a salesperson. I am a healer. I have deep conviction in what I do and how I do it. How in the world do I let the rest of the world know it, too? I don’t want to come across as cheesy and insincere. I don’t want to diminish the significance of what I do and how I do it. I want my passion to be infectious. I want the desire for personal awareness to light the spark within. I want others to see the value in themselves and let it shine. How in the world do I bridge the land of marketing and healing?

 

This whole experience of the health fairs also ignites the passion to stand in my gift and continue to expand Lux Eterna Healing because of me and the healing work I do. I don’t want to ride on the coattails of someone else. I don’t want to solely rely on others. Word of mouth referrals are important and the highest recommendation possible and I value them immensely, but I also want to know that I am enough to establish an impactful, sustaining business because of me.

 

All of this then leads to the awareness of the inner stirrings that the fullness of my healing gifts is yet to be attained. There is an inkling of a depth of healing greater than I can fathom waiting…simply waiting…for me to unlock. There is a heightened curiosity within me and I’m not really sure what to do about it. How do I work with this ‘knowing’? How do I create the space necessary for the unfolding? Is there something I need to do that I’m missing? There are times that it’s hard to imagine that there is more when I already feel incredibly blessed with the gifts that I have and utilize regularly.

 

So many unanswered questions…

 

So much exploration to take place…

 

Transforming fear into freedom…yes, please!