Creativity

Creativity is the "juice" that feeds my soul, yet it can also be the very thing that stirs up the fear and old beliefs. Since when did it become scary to have fun?

I am beginning to see that I allow the fun of creativity to happen on my terms, often in the midst of a very limited number of people. Yes, I have piano performances which completely engage my creativity, but I don't always allow myself to have fun in the process. I am engaged and connected to a degree...a degree I determine as 'safe'.

I am in the process of preparing a benefit concert (see the Events page on my website) and am excited about what it is all going to include. The fascinating part for me to lean into is that I am being challenged to step out of my comfort zone in front of an audience.

I haven't done extensive solo piano performing in over 20 years. Aside of the fact that I don't feel that old, I see how other people have shaped the false belief of my capacity to perform as a soloist, mainly in the form of professors, coaches or other people who are ideally there to support the creative process. It's time for me to believe in me, the creative power I have within, and let it be seen.

Then we can add the element of vocal and piano improv. Yes...vocal. I pride myself in being one who sings with my fingers...not so much my voice. Yet interestingly enough, I found myself doing vocal improv in the middle of a piano lesson I was teaching to a high school student. I'm obviously quite capable...but am I willing to take risks in front of an audience in the name of creativity and fun?

Am I willing to break my rules about my creative ability?

Am I willing to grow into the creative powerhouse that lies within me? (And for the record, you, too, are a creative powerhouse!)

Am I willing to experiment and make mistakes in the name of connection, creation and joy?

What are you willing to do?

You can experience the result of this leg of my journey on April 13th at the benefit concert!